4.44
the last 2 days
4.44am
this is not fun
and I don’t want to play
was having such brilliant dreams
that the last thing I want is to wake up
and wait
wait
wait to see if this morning
the tinge of regret has gone
the stain of hurt has dissapaited
most mornings, it’s just a faint
battle cry from within
this morning
it was like a scene from 300.
All the emotions
piled on top of one another.
I don’t want this
I don’t want this
go back to sleep or
Get up
Get out
find some shoes, pants, t-shirt.
I walk the rocks
each step another memory
another time
but my god
this sunrise is taking my breath away
it’s whispers of pale blue, pink, orange
spreading across the sky
but my god
this sunrise is taking my breath away.
the waves pound with persitance at the rocks
the pool
as still and as effective as a mirror
as I walk towards the steps.
but my god
this sunrise is taking my breath away
taking the pain away
taking my clothes off me
as I strip to show my body.
I am all,
but I am nothing.
and now I’m naked.
So I might as well enjoy a swim.
xxxx
